CAUTION: This post has references to Christianity. Viewer discretion is advised. No offense is meant to any religious (or non-religious) beliefs.
I'll admit, I wrote this while angry. Cut me some slack, and please allow me to vent my frustrations.
Oddly enough, I planned this 3 days before writing this. During that span of time, I had a variety of emotions.
As a kid and even now, I often lack attention, especially from people my age. Most of the time, they're "busy", whether they say so, actually do busy tasks, or simply don't respond to messages for 15 minutes.
I can tolerate my "friends" being busy for really long amounts of time, even if it's 3 months, if I know why and how they will be busy, if I don't need them for an important task, and if I know when they have guaranteed free time.
(yes, I don't think I have true friends except player4709)
But, most of the time, my impatience and boredom take over to the point where I pester a person every day with messages of "Hey, are you busy right now?" to which they most likely reply "Yes, I am studying/doing art/about to leave the house" either immediately or after 5 minutes of brief and casual but incomplete chatting.
I know how disturbing this pestering can be to some people, so I sometimes add "Am I annoying you with these messages?" to stay polite and avoid disrespect.
Sometimes, though, this busy time feels like it's never-ending, even on Christmas and summer vacations. Somehow, some people find some silly and "responsible" way to keep themselves busy outside of studies and work in a way that I can't predict when they will ever take a break and spend at least 15 minutes with me.
At first, I found this 24/7 busy time absurd since I play video games for hours on end yet still manage my schedules well, I know when my family members regularly slack off, and I often see students in the mall that are not doing school work and having fun conversations or activities. Plus, I don't think a human being can survive without doing fun stuff outside of work and school.
But it turns out there are logical explanations to the 24/7 busy time, aside from the determination to achieve personal life goals. Some people love their work and may consider it fun, including me (I can code and blog for hours on end), my dad (he's always focused on work, even at home), and
Dick Figures co-creator Ed Skudder (he once
stayed up at 2 AM while animating
Dick Figures: The Movie). Some people, like my
brother, are also perfectly happy being alone. At least these facts make me less triggered now.
In this blog post, I made a schedule that leaves no room whatsoever for fun time with me, based on a Christian child or teenager from the Philippines.
Monday-Friday
5:00 AM - 6:00 AM: Wake up, breakfast, prepare for school
6:00 AM - 8:00 AM: Drive/Commute to school (yes, traffic is awful here in Manila)
8:00 AM - 4:00 PM: Classes
4:00 PM - 6:00 PM: Drive/Commute home
6:00 PM - 7:00 PM: Dinner
7:00 PM - 9:00 PM: Homework (alone, with strictly no help from friends and family)
9:00 PM - 9:30 PM: Pray the Rosary
9:30 PM: Sleep
Saturdays, Holidays, and Christmas/Summer Vacation
8:00 AM - 8:30 AM: Wake up, work out/sports (as long as LunaticTactician isn't involved)
8:30 AM - 9:00 AM: Breakfast
9:00 AM - 12:00 Noon: Homework
12:00 Noon - 12:30 PM: Lunch
12:30 PM - 1:30 PM: Nap
1:30 PM - 3:00 PM: Write original songs/Practice music
3:00 PM - 5:00 PM: Draw anime
5:00 PM - 6:00 PM: Help with family business, check stock market
6:00 PM - 7:00 PM: Dinner
7:00 PM -
9:00 PM: Hang out with true friends who are
impulsive extroverts (term invented by Ivann Baloran) (to be honest, I don't know what else to fill in here other than homework)
9:00 PM - 9:30 PM: Pray the Rosary
9:30 PM: Sleep
Sundays
6:00 AM - 6:30 AM: Wake up, prepare for the Holy Mass
6:30 AM - 7:30 AM: Attend Holy Mass
7:30 AM - 8:00 AM: Breakfast
8:00 AM - 10:00 AM: Spend money earned from investment, music, art, and the family business at the supermarket
10:00 AM - 12:00 Noon: Homework
12:00 Noon - 12:30 PM: Lunch
12:30 PM - 1:30 PM: Nap
1:30 PM - 3:00 PM: Write novel/Do scientific research
3:00 PM - 5:00 PM: Volunteerism/Choir service with the Church
5:00 PM - 6:00 PM: Work out/Sports
6:00 PM - 7:00 PM: Dinner
7:00 PM - 9:00 PM: I guess, cram music, arts, business, and homework all in one? And possibly invite some impulsive extroverts? (I'm out of ideas; let's just say that these responsible ladies and gentlemen are excellent at time management and have the iron will of a famous general)
9:00 PM - 9:30 PM: Pray the Rosary
9:30 PM: Sleep
Every time LunaticTactician tries to help/get attention: Do one of the following:
- Ignore
- Say "I'm busy" (regardless of whether it's true or not)
- Explode angrily at LunaticTactician and shout "I'M NOT YOUR FRIEND ANYMORE, YOU WORTHLESS SACK OF RUBBISH!"
By the way, notice how the schedule has no "lazy" activities like "Watch YouTube videos" or "Play video games".
Countering Potential Counter-Arguments
"You should respect the personal time and space of other people, no matter how you feel about it. It is part of your duty to be polite and respectful to others."
Yeah, sorry pal, I don't follow Kantian ethics.
And my patience has limits.
"Why not just play The Sims?"
Although The Sims series makes social interactions look easy and fun, exchanges of knowledge and ideas can't be done in single player video games. And my mind overflows with scientific ideas that I think are best shared between friends, rather than in-game or the public.
(By the way, which is grammatically correct: "The The Sims series", or "The Sims series"?)
"Stop your nonsense rants. They will do you no good."
I am protected by my right to freedom of speech. As long as I don't violate any international or local laws, as well as the policies of Google/Blogger, I can say whatever I wish.
Some people, other than my family members and friends, also enjoy reading my rants.
However, please feel free to tell me if I get any facts or grammar/spelling wrong, or if I'm violating any laws/policies. (Religious laws don't count; I'm not a Christian anymore.)
I just don't want to get involved in any ethics- or morals-related debates. I like being peaceful, thank you very much.
"You suck and I hate you."
too lazy to reply (intentional bad grammar)
Next Blog Post Plans
I'm gonna finish My Opinion on Every Pokémon Generation 4 tomorrow.
Also, I came back from a 3rd boxing match with YoSquid (we weren't allowed to wrestle).